Quick post, 4-5 years later

This was my original blog, before I purchased survivalday416.com and chose BeyondHamilton as my Twitter name.  Even before HamiltonMusical!

This will just be a text entry, and brief.
A lot has happened in 4-5 years. More brain surgeries, toured NYC multiple times and Europe again, on SSDI now, (I don't know if that was mentioned before) but I doubt it. I believe I was obsessed inside Occupy Atlanta when I finished writing in here.

Chronic, spine-deep pain is OUCH!  All started with a left pinky injury... now the flashes of pain seem centered at the base of my spine.

I just "came out" about discovering I am Pansexual 💃👔  to a family member I am certain will accept me.  Time will tell about the others.  None of them use Twitter, but I messaged one cousin who will understand.  Any of my other friends who follow me here will understand.  (Or will at least accept me.)

Be well, everyone.

💜 Lisa

bunch of misc. shit.

1:15am isn't the best time to blog when I want to fix my hood and meet Copper outside the jail.  Oh, I hope I find time to meet Copper.  He's the glue of Occupy Atlanta.  He's amazing.
I'm so glad I found the other blog today, too.  He phrased PERFECTLY the problems with vandalism, as this scrap unit within Occupy Atlanta seems to think is cool.
I am having a shot Monday that will surely fuck with my seizure meds.  I'm afraid to drive all next week.  I read it can reduce the effectiveness of my med by 40-60%.  It may do nothing at all, too.  The neurologist says they are both protein binding drugs, so they can block how the other binds to protein.  Good to know.  So I won't drive the first couple of weeks to be sure it's all okay.  I never thought I'd bother with birth control again.  If it will lessen the obscenely heavy flow, bring it ON.  I half hope the shot interferes with the med.  I'd much rather have a medically necessary hysterectomy than a medically necessary medication.  Duh.
K that's enough.  Someday I'll write blogs of substance instead of personal pure crap like this.  I can always edit or delete them, I suppose.  I'd rather note it down to know when things happen.
So, tomorrow I'll either put the ratchet on my hood or buy another 'hold down' item.  I have a leash.  That may be enough for now.  Then I can go see COPPER!!!  I love Copper.
Sunday there's the Occupy Atlanta legal meeting.  I need to go there for that.  I'll bring the cool vegan cookies dad discovered.
Signing off.

Occupy Atlanta being weird

I hope OA can work through this.  We have an few people who want to destroy property and shout epithets.  I feel out of the loop often, because most of my participation is online.  I can't go downtown during the week.  Aside from "weekdays are for job searches", I simply cannot afford it.  I may try to go tomorrow night.  There's a lot going on and I'd like to be there.  There have been shouting and threats, etc.  If we can't get this under control, I'm out of OA.  That would really be a shame.  Occupy is a nonviolent, civil disobedience movement.  It is not a 'let's destroy property while keeping our faces covered and shout epithets" movement.  This strange beast trying to inhale OA even wants to get rid of media!  They'll probably aim for other groups as well.  I'm looking forward to them scrapping legal.

They may not want to scrap Legal.  I believe they behave this way at OA events because they know they'll have the support of the various OA groups.  Personally, I think anyone who behaves like this should not receive Legal support.  I'm not positive, but I think that's the opinion of the Legal group.  Email has been slow the last two days.  On the Occupy Atlanta facebook group page it's like someone dumped two colonies of fire ants into a bucket and they began to fight.

At least one other person from Legal is fed up.  He says one more thing and he's out.  He's been in OA and very active for forever and for him to say this is a very big deal.

I'm hoping Legal comes to consensus we will not support those who behave destructively.  If that's true, I want to be chosen to break the news.  :)  There will be an explosion, for sure.  My hope is those of OA who are truly OA will stand up and support our decision.  Participation has been down over the holidays.  I hope it will pick up.  Occupy Atlanta needs Legal support, but I have no reservations walking away.

the seizures are back

This week has gone from confused, annoyed and depressed.
through frustrated, tears, vertigo, aphasia, afraid, angry...
Seizures are back.  The Complex Partial/deja vu ones.  I've had 4 in 3 weeks.  Dr. Butthead raised a med a bit. I guess that's okay.  It's only been one day since he did this.  I shouldn't expect a dramatic change this soon.  It was annoying to have one in Target, though.  Grrrr
Change of plans for a trip again.  I'll go up and back Chattanooga in one day.  See Roy, come back.  It adds another state and show, too.  Cool!
The following day Roy has added something really neat.  A songwriting class.  It's held at the same UU as the show next week.  I wasn't going to go to this.  It's $25 and I have no clue what I would write.  I thought if I went to a class like that I'd just be sitting there with my guitar, staring around.
Then last night something amazing happened!!!  I woke around 1 or 2 with one sentence.  Then one more.  Then one more.  I turned on the light, found paper and wrote them down.  Before I knew it, I had two or three of these medium notebook pages filled with sentences.  It's beyond a kernel of an idea.  It's a harvest!  I'm going to write something about my relationship with Markus and the accident/injury.  I plan to blend them together.  So much of one matches the other.  If all goes well, it will sound as though I could be singing about either one separately.  Like one of those double-image photos.  Can you see it both ways?
I said I'd learn Roy's new song.  I was going to post a cover by tomorrow night, but no.  I'd rather work out the nit grit for the songwriting class.  Including a possible melody?  Dunno.

My new schedule for the weekend is this:
Fri 10/21 visit unemployment office.  What's up?
Fri 10/21 camp at Occupy Atlanta
Sat 10/22 to Chattanooga, see Roy's show, come home
Sun 10/23 occupy Atlanta all day, do songwriting class, return to camp?
Mon 10/24 home, apply for SSDI
Tue 10/25 to Clemson??

Another thought...

If Janie doesn't want to do Chattanooga,

Fri 10/21 I'll drive to Knoxville, see Roy's show, then camp with Occupy Knoxville.
Sat 10/22 I'd drive to Chattanooga and occupy Chattanooga until the show that night. Then drive home.
If I include Knoxville, I won't bother with Clemson... unless Janie's going.

Occupy Atlanta

Janie and I went last Saturday, the 8th, from maybe 1p - 10p.  It was fun, too!  I'm glad she was there.  We were lost, but together.  She could find our way using landmarks.  We found ourselves quickly.  I would have wandered around for hours.  I can't find words, either.  So, between some vertigo, wandering aimlessly, and unable to find words, I was a winner.  I need Janie with me.  I'd rather it be Janie than anyone else.  She's into the movement just as I am.  She's so articulate with her beliefs.  I'm proud to know her.

I planned to go up there today then stay the night, then I remembered how it was last week.  I want so much to be an 'on the ground' part of the movement.  I was on the ground last weekend, I guess.  She asked if I wanted to go next Saturday, but I'm going up to Chattanooga to see Roy.  There's an Occupy Chattanooga... maybe we should do that!

I'd love to go to New York City and be in the eye of the storm.  No matter how many applications I sent, I don't receive calls.  I've received two calls.  One, from someone cold - because I said I can speak German.  She needed someone who is fluent in German.  Then the other day someone left a message, saying only "This is about a job interview." and left her name and number. ????  Sounds scam-ish to me.  The number is a cell phone in Knoxville, TN.  I'll call back Monday.  Or maybe I'll call tomorrow.  Mom's right.  I could just get a message machine and learn more about who called me.

I'm off to ask Janie about Chattanooga!!

... in process...

It hurts.
Troy's execution is in progress.  They said within half an hour, but then they immediately said it's happening.
His death certificate will read "homicide".  Good.  The state murdered someone tonight.
How dare we tell other nations not to execute when we do.
Ouch