the seizures are back

This week has gone from confused, annoyed and depressed.
through frustrated, tears, vertigo, aphasia, afraid, angry...
Seizures are back.  The Complex Partial/deja vu ones.  I've had 4 in 3 weeks.  Dr. Butthead raised a med a bit. I guess that's okay.  It's only been one day since he did this.  I shouldn't expect a dramatic change this soon.  It was annoying to have one in Target, though.  Grrrr
Change of plans for a trip again.  I'll go up and back Chattanooga in one day.  See Roy, come back.  It adds another state and show, too.  Cool!
The following day Roy has added something really neat.  A songwriting class.  It's held at the same UU as the show next week.  I wasn't going to go to this.  It's $25 and I have no clue what I would write.  I thought if I went to a class like that I'd just be sitting there with my guitar, staring around.
Then last night something amazing happened!!!  I woke around 1 or 2 with one sentence.  Then one more.  Then one more.  I turned on the light, found paper and wrote them down.  Before I knew it, I had two or three of these medium notebook pages filled with sentences.  It's beyond a kernel of an idea.  It's a harvest!  I'm going to write something about my relationship with Markus and the accident/injury.  I plan to blend them together.  So much of one matches the other.  If all goes well, it will sound as though I could be singing about either one separately.  Like one of those double-image photos.  Can you see it both ways?
I said I'd learn Roy's new song.  I was going to post a cover by tomorrow night, but no.  I'd rather work out the nit grit for the songwriting class.  Including a possible melody?  Dunno.

My new schedule for the weekend is this:
Fri 10/21 visit unemployment office.  What's up?
Fri 10/21 camp at Occupy Atlanta
Sat 10/22 to Chattanooga, see Roy's show, come home
Sun 10/23 occupy Atlanta all day, do songwriting class, return to camp?
Mon 10/24 home, apply for SSDI
Tue 10/25 to Clemson??

Another thought...

If Janie doesn't want to do Chattanooga,

Fri 10/21 I'll drive to Knoxville, see Roy's show, then camp with Occupy Knoxville.
Sat 10/22 I'd drive to Chattanooga and occupy Chattanooga until the show that night. Then drive home.
If I include Knoxville, I won't bother with Clemson... unless Janie's going.

Occupy Atlanta

Janie and I went last Saturday, the 8th, from maybe 1p - 10p.  It was fun, too!  I'm glad she was there.  We were lost, but together.  She could find our way using landmarks.  We found ourselves quickly.  I would have wandered around for hours.  I can't find words, either.  So, between some vertigo, wandering aimlessly, and unable to find words, I was a winner.  I need Janie with me.  I'd rather it be Janie than anyone else.  She's into the movement just as I am.  She's so articulate with her beliefs.  I'm proud to know her.

I planned to go up there today then stay the night, then I remembered how it was last week.  I want so much to be an 'on the ground' part of the movement.  I was on the ground last weekend, I guess.  She asked if I wanted to go next Saturday, but I'm going up to Chattanooga to see Roy.  There's an Occupy Chattanooga... maybe we should do that!

I'd love to go to New York City and be in the eye of the storm.  No matter how many applications I sent, I don't receive calls.  I've received two calls.  One, from someone cold - because I said I can speak German.  She needed someone who is fluent in German.  Then the other day someone left a message, saying only "This is about a job interview." and left her name and number. ????  Sounds scam-ish to me.  The number is a cell phone in Knoxville, TN.  I'll call back Monday.  Or maybe I'll call tomorrow.  Mom's right.  I could just get a message machine and learn more about who called me.

I'm off to ask Janie about Chattanooga!!